Chanseda’s Birthday was here(Rebecca’s older sister. Remember Chanseda is older then me, I couldn’t go to her party because it will be messy, slippery and pack. I am not sure where it was, I just knew it’ll be pack. It was a Friday and everyone in my house was out, Ganykar was somewhere with Rebecca, my brothers were at Chanseda’s Birthday party. My parents were sleeping in there room. I sat on my bed alone thinking I don’t belong in this world, why did god choose me to be handicap and noone else? School was bad, I felt like everyone was against me. I knew exactly what was going on, people were just taking advantage of me being disable. I had cuts, bruises on my legs and arms. I was upset and I hurted myself. I didn’t think life was going to get better, I’ll be depending on others for the rest of my life. Where would I be in the future, noone is going to want me. My brothers and sister will have there own family to worry about. I’m gross looking at school, noone wants me. I’ll be alone, I will have no future. I had my Facebook on, on my bed and the lights turned off. It was December, I had a blanket over me, I posted”When my mom had my life in her hands, why wouldn’t she let it go. Doesn’t she know I am hurting now.” I went to sleep.
To be continued…
I do not regret posting what I posted because I can look back and compare what I said to now. Life is amazing, god is amazing!!! 😇 Expect the unexpected, I would never think I’ll be doing what I do today, I was a sad person. When I learnhow to talk. I kept asking my mom,”why did god choose me to be handicap?” She told me if she can let her self be the one who went throught what I went through, she’ll change it. I don’t want anyone else to go through what I went through. I meet new people everyday and they approach me like they know I have a story and I motivate them with my biography. What I am blogging here.
“EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON ” My reason is to inspire and motivate people, god woke me up to do that. I hope to inspire and motivate readers.