I’m getting bless at the temple. I was at the gym earlier for 40 minutes, but my parents pick me up from the gym to get me bless. My dad makes sculptures for temples. I’m prayying for blessings this year, luck, health. I get bless often at the temple or home. It gives me a peice of mind, knowing my life is watched by god. My house has a Buddha room, for pray, getting bless, reading fortunes. My dad does it, my room is bless, the rice I eat is bless, 👃
A few weeks ago, I was sitting on my wheelchair on my phone outside Bubble Tea House. A guy walked pass me twice then told me I am bless.We talk about my incident, what I went through and going to Planet Fitness. He ask me the pleasure to walk with me to the gym. I said ok after I arrive to Planet Fitness, he gave me a cross necklace. It don’t fit my hea#, but I’ll decorate it.
Do you know of the song”Let it go” in Frozen, the Disney movie? Well I was at the gym in the afternoon, I was pushing my wheelchair around and around. I had music playing on my phone and I had on earbuds.The song came on and it became powerful, I let my hair down. Shake my head around and started walking imagining I was in the video.
When I woke up at Boston Hospital from coma, I was getting better, I wokeup not able to talk or move, but i was getting better fast. I was getting around in a wheelchair. Still am, but I don’t need to Well my mom stayed in the hospital with me during coma for months with noone to talk to. She doesn’t speak good English. I’m a huge mama’s girl. She lost so muçh for me, my family lost so much for me. At Boston hospital, the nurses took some patients to pick apples at a farm. My mom was pushing my wheelchair crying, kids were running yelling”Mom mom!” I could talk, from that day on I don’t want to travel. Travel to me is vacation. I let my family travel, I just don’t.
I am a Pescatarian, I became it last May. I don’t eat animal meat, red or white. I do eat fish. I thought I was going to give up after 2 weeks. I tried being one before, but gave up. I was going to the gym, but not seeing results in balancing, toning or weight loss. Walking normally is so important to me, I want to one day wear heels, be able to travel. I have never travel out the USA. I want to visit the Netherlands, traveling is a hassle for me. I’ll get into it later. I changed my eating habits to being a pescatarian to get stronger. I been seeing fast results in balancing, my pupils became lighter, I feel great!!! It’s important so I stuck to it. I do take vitamins.
When I was in high school, I was overweight, weak on a wheelchair. If you saw me then compared to now my face changed. I was so scared to do anything to my face so I depended on others. I was an easy target, students called me ugly, retard and spread false rumor about me. It was horrible, my family believed the rumors. I felt like everyone was against me. I use to like sitting on my mom’s friend swing just thinking about what if I never had my incident, where would I be? I felt like an embarrassment for my family, I even posted on Facebook”When my mom had my life in her hand, why wouldn’t she let it go doesn’t she know I am hurting in the inside now.” Talking about my feeding tube and coma…I wish I had met someone like me to tell me when I was going through all of this that everything is going to be alright, just hang in there. Now there is a person like that, I am that person.
Keeping blogs is clever, it’s like a journal. My life is pretty interesting, when I was younger I thought my life was scripted, played out, rehearse. Everyone around me was actors and actresses. When I got older, the actors and actresses were replace. I now know it is played out, BY GOD. He’s doing a great work, I am a fan. I believe everything happens for a reason, be patient. Life is like a grill cheese sandwhich. The top bread is your introductuction, the back bread is your happilly ever after, the cheese is the middle.